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PNE – Almost Missed a First

Although A is only 2 an a few months I don’t think I’ve missed a first.  First steps, first word, first smile, first fall down the stairs, first cupcake, I even caught her first roll over with my old blackberry video – I apologize for the bad quality , the Blue Rodeo blaring and me screaming (so you might want to turn down the volume for this, there’s a very slow build up so feel free to skip to about 1:45)

A’s First Rollover – video link

But wait I have missed A FIRST.

I went back to work full time when A was 10 months old, she wasn’t walking yet, to me she was still so little.  The contract was a year long and another like that wouldn’t come available to me for some time.  I felt I needed to work.  I was a going to be a working mom.


One of the hardest  days was the day I missed a FIRST. In the beginning a friend nannied  for us (we lost daycare  a week before going back to work).  She was great, sent daily photo updates to my phone and I had absolute faith in her.  I devoured every message she sent me.

But then she sent me THE MISSING FIRST VIDEO!

I had taken A to Strong Start several times and she’d never gathered the courage to go thru the tunnel.  But while I was working – She did it. I was happy for her, devastated for me.  I put my head down and didn’t talk to anyone the rest of the day.  I couldn’t speak, the tears were one breath away.  I rushed out the front doors at 6pm and burst into tears, my heart racing, the cold February air not cold enough to numb my feelings.  I wanted to quit work right there.  What if I missed her first full step, her first day of school, her first dance recital, her first soccer game, her first heart ache.  My brain ran wild with failure, missing everything for what- My own stubbornness to be a women who can do it all:  Career and Motherhood. I was raised to have a career, I could do both.

Missing A FIRST shattered all future paths I had laid out. I cried and cried in front of the my friend and her boyfriend (who I met that evening), I cried in my husbands arms and I cried to sleep.

I needed to work, but I needed flexibility if I was going to survive trying to have a Career and be a Mom.

Fast forward to this week.  Daycare was going to the PNE… I was going to miss a First.  I tried to put on a brave face, my husband saw thru it.  I needed to go.  It might be silly to most but I can’t miss a first.  It makes me physically sick.

I’m amazingly lucky to be working at Atomic Cartoons right now.  They walk the talk about family comes first; I was able to work till noon then meet daycare at the PNE, and go back to work in the evening when my husband was home.

Let me now bask in the glow of PNE FIRSTS.

My daughter won her FIRST PRIZE

She popped balloons and “won” a pink bear. She was proud of herself and cuddled her pink bear tight against her cheek  as if  it was actually soft and cuddly. Two nights later that prize has been added to her bedtime collection of stuffies.


The Carrousel – She picked the perfect horse, sat on it proudly watching the other kids around her, wondering what was going to happen. Then the carrousel started to turn and the horse went up and down.  She was amazed.  I watched her wonderment and fought back happy tears.  How lucky was I to share this moment with her. I tried to be quiet to let her soak it in. (not an easy feat for me)

She went on her FIRST RIDE BY HERSELF!

The little boat ride. An older girl who sat in the front of the boat with her own little brother asked her name and eased my daughters initial trepidation.  The ride started to move and with a big smile she grabbed the steering wheel and searched for me – she wanted to show me how much fun she was having!  I soaked up the visual and yelled her name every time she came around my way.

All I have left to say is thank you.  Thank you daycare for going, thank you Atomic Cartoons for being totally fine with my split shift, and thank you to my husband for knowing I needed to go and giving me just enough of a hand squeeze to help me feel I could go.

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Easy Nutritions in No Time at all…That’s My Style

I’m thinking this could become a reoccurring title for blog posts for me.

I work full time, and would rather spend my couple hours in the evening at the a park playing and watching my daughter enjoy herself… especially with the warm weather.

I’m also not a planner.  I’ve attempted to do weekly dinner lists but that never lasts more than a couple weeks.  They are fantastic ideas and make good use of the fresh food you have because everything is thought out before buying.  Saves money too.   But I’m not consistent.

I’m always on the hunt for fast and nutritious food for my daughter.

How about Strawberry Milk?

There are some nutritionally poor milk products out there.  Have you ever look at the nutritional factors of flavored milk.  I watched Jamie Oliver’s Food Revolution and was dumbfounded at the amount of sugar found in flavored milk which is served twice a day to kids. (yes an American school) but it got me thinking.

So I went to the Food Facts website to have a look at Nestle’s Nesquik Strawberry Milk – it received an F  that’s right an F!  and here is why:

  1. Serving Size: 1 Cup
  2. Servings Per Container: 2   (sneaky cause what kid would only drink half a bottle??)
  3. Amount Per Serving  Calories 230    Calories from Fat 70
  4. Total Calories 460      Total Calories from Fat 140
  5. Total Fat 7 g    11%
  6. Saturated Fat   5g 25%
  7. Sodium 115 mg  5%
  8. Potassium mg0%3,500 mg
  9. Sugars 30 g
  10. Not to mention the artificial like: Calcium Carbonate, Potassium Citrate, Blue 1, Carrageenan, Red 40

(for the full review by Food Facts:

So why not make your own.  Seriously it is so easy.  We are lucky to have berries in season right now.  The ones from the local farms are bursting with flavor.  Best Organic around, but I’d use frozen berries in the winter time too.

In Jamie Oliver fashion I didn’t measure anything, and you can have your little one help. Three simple ingredients  no preservatives, nothing to keep it on a shelf for years and years.  Just fresh and yummy.

Strawberry Milk Recipe


  • Some milk (1-2 cups milk) – Any kind of milk you use : almond, soy, rice, 2%
  • A handful or two of strawberries, rinsed, stems removed -I halved them
  • 1 to 3 Tbsp honey or agave syrup


  • Drop them all into a blender, mix until strawberries are fully blended with the milk and serve!
  • If it a fancy day as my daughter likes to call them a dollop of whipping cream on top  adds pizzazz!

As you can see my daughter loved it, she even shared a little sip with me.


Michael Jackson Cirque Du Soleil

My girlfriend Nic invited me to go to Michael Jackson Cirque Du Soleil the other night.  What a treat!!

I love  grand spectacle music concerts and I love Cirque Du Soleil.  I’m the person sitting in front of you singing out loud (probably off key and annoying you), dancing in my seat willing to jump up  and exuberantly clap hands if the performers give the smallest hint to do so.

Cirque puts on a great show.  This show was more dancing than aerobatics but still managed to take my breath away at times.

She crawled out of a book, I swear she was rubber

Pole Dancing is amazing I’d kills for 1/4 of her strength

You try dancing attached to this contraption

I didn’t realize how much the music of Michael Jackson was and is part of my life. Let’t talk Music – just his music – I don’t want to talk about his personal life. I have specific memories relating to certain songs of his.

Thriller – Monumental!  Groundbreaking! 1982!  Choreography that is recognizable and copied with great joy to whomever is doing it.  (a quick search on youtube will give you a variety of videos – weddings, lego, prisons, animated, tv shows, movies) I remember sitting with my brother watching MTV in a hotel room – we were glued to the tv. The costumes, the choreography, it was bliss.  MTV was airing it 2 times an hour to meet the demand for the 14 minute video. I was hooked to music videos.  For years and years after watching MJ’s Thriller video  my brother and I would sit together and bond over music videos.

Billy Jean – My brother and I trying to learn to do the moon walk.  Of course my brother easily picked it up.

The Way You Make Me Feel – Picture this: a late 80’s (1987) teen club in Kamloops (the one on the North Shore, not Checkers). Dancing in the typical girl circle with Kyna, Michelle, Chrissie and other gal pals with our purses in a pile in the middle, hoping to catch they eye of an out of town KIBIHT player.  I remember wanting the dress, the bangles, the boots and of course the hair of the actress in the video.  I still love short dresses and good boots.


Now I’m a mom and Michael Jackson is still in my life.  I play Don’t Stop Till You Get Enough, PYT and other Jackson classics for  my daughter.  She jumps on the bed and I tell her how good this song or that song.  

Thanks again Nic  I had a great evening.


The North Shore .. a road trip of sorts

My daughter and I had a sleepover recently.  A road trip … of sorts… Over to the North Shore that is.  Ok so its not far but going to her Godparents is always an adventure with a bit of fantasy because they have a back yard!

Her godmother , a great friend of ours is an amazzzziiiiinnnnnnggggg chef.  At their home, you’d never know my daughter can be somewhat picky with what she eats.  But at Aunti Laura’s my daughter will eat anything.  Off they go into the garden to pick lettuce, and A munches on lettuce as she picks.  Homemade raviolli, fresh salad, bbq ribs and don’t get me started on desserts. No one can compare. NO ONE.

We all decided to check out the Lonsdale Night Market.  It runs Friday nights 5-midnight. We listened to some live music that for once was enjoyable and not screaming loud.  The market had a lovely community feel, not super crowded and I felt comfortable letting my 2yr old walk a few paces a head of me.  She found this awesome vendor who let kids color on their truck…on purpose.. and not get into trouble.  How great is that for a kid.

What I can color on this truck and not get into trouble

We all had a great evening,  Aurora wore Ottie (their lovable kissy monster of a dog).

The morning brought more fantasy food.  Waffles, fresh cream, berries and bacon.  And delish coffee.  I think we slept over more for me than for my daughter.

Some serious conversation going on

After breakfast we had an impromptu playdate with two lovlies:  Mahalia and Stella.  The moms got to catch up and the girls ran around racing and chasing each other. Best of all for the girls was of course – the blueberry bush.  This Aurora is last year them.

And here they both are this year, they have grown so much!

We are very lucky to have wonderful friends in our life.  Aurora’s godparents provide many enjoyable experiences but more than that they want to be part of her life and to help us mold her to become a wonderful human.

thanks for the great sleepover !